I'm a Mess

I know that pain can take me places that love has never been
I know the company I keep is just a reflection of me
I know instead of getting wasted, I should be getting clean
'Cause when I tried to drown my sorrows, the fuckers learned to breathe
Underwater, second daughter syndrome is a real thing
And I am permanently paralyzed by everything I think, I think
I think myself to death, I'd like to rewire my head
I'd like to be more like my sister because she can make her bed

I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess
I'm ashamed, I'm ashamed
I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess
Again, again

Somebody please stop the world, I think I would like to alight
It's not for me, I can't believe I've paid two decades for this ride
Still, I do not believe that God exists and I've become a narcissist
I had a revelation, but I don't know what it is

I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess
I'm ashamed, I'm ashamed
I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess

Again, again
I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess
I'm ashamed, I'm ashamed
I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess

Again, again
I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess
I'm ashamed, I'm ashamed
I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess

Again, again
I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess
I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess

Nothing makes me quite as happy as the pursuit of perfection
And the quizzes on the internet all say
You have depression
And I plan for self-improvement, but I never really change

So I stop living for the weekend because every day's the same
It's all the same
It's all the same

I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess
I'm ashamed, I'm ashamed
I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess
Again, again