Departures

Today all colors are bleeding.
Across the ocean.
I am sorry I couldn't stay.

How does it feel to own what you are.
To unstitch your heart without causing a flood.
To fall but never ceasing to believe.
In light taking over darkness.
To breathe life in serenity.

If only I knew how to forgive.
If only I knew how to let go.
If only I knew how to own what I am.

Galaxies away.
I am riding the waves of the lost.
Lead this ship astray.
Make me hate you again.
Fear, trust, guilt, love.
In the grip of a coming storm.
I am sinking under the weight of a troubled sun.
When bitterness conquered the heart.
And left us crawling in the cold.
Screaming worth a lifetime with a voice of a follower.
Always too soon. Always too late. Always in between.

If only I knew how to forgive.
If only I knew how to let go.
If only I knew how to own what I am.